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testify

 

Will it be written in stone? Will it be signed in my blood?

Will I have been heard over the crowd.,? Will I have whispered way too loud...?

Would I have meant what I said.. would I have promised too much?

Would I have crumbled beneath the weight…of never having been touched.

I was here I was here I’ve been here before.

Will it have drifted to sea.,carried out by the tide?

Will it be buried like a treasure in the night, that no one ever will find?

Will I have changed by the end? Will I have tried but in vain..

Will I have suffered the scratches and the scars of everyone else’s pain...?

I was here I was here . I’ve been here before.

RESURRECTION

I have sacrificed myself paying homage to these ghosts
All these loves who dissolved into thin air the moment I got close

Rise up , rise up now from the dead...all my unwanted thoughts like children
that lye buried in my head
I can jump without a parachute now from this plane..and i’ll smash right through
the rubble and the rocks that hold my pain..

Resurrect this sacred thing...deliver me from who i’ve been..

I have danced at the masquerade. now i’ve murdered my disguise
I have marched in a fool’s parade, now my heart has gotten wise..

It’s time to ascend...let the ceremony end.I’ve offered up enough of my blood
Now all that I have left are some ashes from all those I could not love...

Release me from this insane lie..til my soul’s been sanctified
Resurrect this sacred thing..deliver me from who i’ve been...

Do you hear the pounding of my ego walking heavy through my mind?
Say goodbye to this lonely martyr who’s been dancing for the blind..

Mirror, mirror, i’ve become conscious to all the things you’ve revealed to me
I’ve been holding my spirit captive now it’s time to set her free...

Resurrect this sacred thing, deliver me from who i’ve been
Deliver me from who i’ve been, resurrect this sacred thing....
This sacred thing...

ONCE

 

ONCE.. .ONCE I WAS, NOW I AM

ONCE I COULD NOT , NOW I CAN

ONCE I DID, NOW I DON’T

ONCE I WOULD HAVE...NOW I WON’T

TELL ME TELL ME, THESE THINGS THAT CHANGE

IS IT JUST ME OR IS GOD PLAYING GAMES?

ONCE, ONCE I WAS, NOW I AM

ONCE I COULD NOT

NOW I CAN...

EMILY LAUGHED

 

She curled her lips, we did not know why
No more reasons in and out for the day she died
Sometimes ghosts don't know that they're dead
Emily laughed today, but do not hold your breath.

There are no words but a sentence left to die
Her secrets all her own, with wings that cannot fly
Voices from the outside, demons deep within
And here lies Emily, making speeches to the wind.

She's sleeping now, amongst the tray of cigarettes
Who interrogates that face, til it's filled with dark regrets.
She scares us, yes, talking verses we can't know
Are you a vacant house, Emily are you home?

Broken

 

I'd like to fall asleep
And breath with you
Be proud of me for once
For the things I do
When it all comes around
What will they say
I'd like to give you something
That you can take away
I did it for you
I did it for me
I did it for anyone listening
I'd like to stay awake
And see it through
Finally change the way
That I talk to you
Why can't I say those things
That are in my head
Allow that best of me
To show instead
I did it for us
I did it for nothing else
I did it to save myself
From everything.

Day in the Life

 

i woke up this time didn't sleep for very long
my dear mr. pillowcase..
i pour a cup of clouds and i drink my inspiration and i can
taste the day comin' on comin' on...
and i throw my imagination over my shoulder
and i tear myself off the page and i try to become real again...
another day in the life ,another day and i'm here again
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again
j.p.'s launched herself again don't know when she's comin' back
but i see her outline in chalk.
and dog is chasing her tail again she thinks she found her
look alike, run in circles run in circles..
and i keep looking inbetween the headlightsand
c's been screaming at the ceiling again cause that's where god is...
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again
another day in the life, another day and i'm here again..

Fall into You

 

I had stumbled into something i think it must be you
didn't have the right to feel good
I believed that , that was true
where I came from didn't matter you said
we all lived with shame
no one seemed to recognize me but you, you knew my name
I could whistle in the darkness to keep the ghosts away
I'm afraid of letting go, but some things have to change
when I can't take what it gives, but it's too late to return
you hold me til the love comes through til I fall into you...
my words are deeper than my thoughts you know
sometimes I try too hard
to say the simple truth to you, gets stuck inside my heart
when I can't risk the opening up
cause I fear it may be empty
you fill me up with the trust that if i fall you'd always catch me
I could lose myself in silence, forget about the noise
but you'd be there at the speed of sound
to give me back my voice.
you'd love me til I loved myself til I'd fall into you
when I can't climb cause faith's too high, I fall into you
when I'm sinking in the precious blue, I fall into you
I had stumbled into something, I think it must be you....

 

Girl in the Attic

 

She sits and silently she watches
The world outside her windows pane
She waits forever hoping something good is gonna happen
But will it ever change
She wonders
Her shoes are worn out like her dreams
Her memories faded like the holes in her jeans
One more casualty of life has died
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh poor girl
She's counting cracks now in the walls
She might fall through one but she'd go unnoticed
Her tears have sunk beneath the wooden floor
Just like her chair her thoughts rock back and forth
One more casualty of life has died
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh dear girl
One more casualty of love just cried
Another day inside
The Attic....
She looks right through me
As if my heart were made of glass
The fires burning One match ignited Life's a gas
But flames can't reach her
She turns to ice in her own world
Ashes to ashes
Say a prayer Do you care
For this trap door girl
One more casualty of love has cried
A little each day inside
The Attic....Oh poor girl
One more casualty of love just cried
Another day inside
The Attic....Oh dear girl

 

Give it Back

 

I am clenching both my fists waving them to heaven
Asking for forgiveness somehow for the wasteful things I've given
I am at high risk now my heart is running empty
On the way to find myself I've hit one dead end
too many too many too many,
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free ,but I'm not
All these things I have given to you
If you do not want it, give it back.
Everything that is given does not come without a price
I risked drowning my sanity just to swim in paradise
Bring me back my dignity give me back my memories
So I can gather them myself so I can save the rest of me
the rest of me the best of me.
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free , but I'm not
All these things I have given to you
If you do not want it give it back
I am shouting here I am so that you can find me
I am cutting through this rope do you think you can bind me
Just because I loved you once nothing is forever
You're the one who taught me that when we were still together
together were not together.
Give it back to me why don't you
If only I were free, but I'm not
All these things I have given to you all
If you do not want it, please
Give it back, give it back

 

Hold My Breath

 

no one can tell me how to do this thing
i have to learn to trust in providence, if nothing else
it may be mighty in my mind that's all
but i cant help the tendency to dream,beneath the dream
when you're in my head i hold my breath
til there's nothing left i hold my breath
nothing can move me, if i stay real still
i thought i'd be here til the sky came down
now look it's all around
and i know it may be safe to stay hidden away
nobody hides better than i do, except maybe you
when you're in my head i hold my breath
til there's nothing left i hold my breath

 

Island

 

here comes the dream shaver, he always likes to take a little
off the top.
maybe you'd be better off,cutting back on your promises...
oh i am east of eden..so far ..so hidden..
i am just loneliness...
i am close to sinking, i am above water now...
take me back,don't take me back, don't take me back...
go away now....

 

Love is Love

 

I saw it in the streets I saw nothing but their faces
everyone looks like someone else to me
the sky held the moon.. the sea kissed the sand
why can't we all be that way, just letting it in
and I wonder does the boat rock the water
or did the water rock the boat side to side?
does it even really matter, if we all fall off this time?
tales of other days, time is time and time does slip away , oh yes it does
there are better days this won't go away, all of us the same
love is love...
and god said let there be light
so if I'm gonna love you better wear a number 19, if i don't want to burn tonight.
maybe if I count to ten, we'll get to start again
and all the kings horses and all the kings men will leave us alone this time
well if we're all created by the same pen why are your words different then mine
so what if I use crayon to sign my name on that fine line.
can't let in the anger, but I can't look away
all of us the same oh yes we are
can't we stand together your hand in my hand
and we'll be holding back the shame
love is love
I saw it in the streets I saw nothing but their faces...

Little Birds

 

Wheat circles and landing gear... don't look now the little birds are already here...
i don't believe in wreckage, i don't believe in zen
i don't believe in jesus well, i've never met the man
i don't believe in salvage, i don't believe in forgiveness
i don't believe that you or i are ever gonna forget this
i don't believe in secrets, i don't believe in pride
i don't believe in anything oh, faith is suicide
i don't believe in boundaries . it's a harmless little cage
i don't believe in weakness it only shields against the rage
i don't believe in sacrifice it's the innocence of blame
i don't believe the day you left and i can't believe you came..
i wanted you.. i wanted them...i wanted us... i wanted me......
i don't believe in solitude, i don't believe in silence
i don't believe in poetry all the demons of awareness
i don't believe in prophecy, i don't believe in pressure
i don't believe in blindfolds they keep on bringing us together
i don't believe in confession i don't believe in weapons
i don't believe in tuesday so i don't believe in wednsday
i don't believe in rituals a rhythmic little cage
i don't believe in exteriors it's temptation's face
i don't believe in clarity... i don't believe in infinity
i don't believe i want to know the day that you forgot me
i wanted you...i wanted them...i wanted us...i wanted me...

Heavy

 

Sorrow wept, thick with desire that splintered and frayed
And Heaven fell, now all of her stars have hidden away

Hauling up that stone
it's just too heavy
raising my voice
But it's too heavy
I draw some breath
It's just so heavy
A chance to sleep
it's just so heavy

Happiness broke, under the spell of silence' sweet kiss
And Loneliness
Sits in her room, talking to ghosts

Dragging one more load
It's just too heavy
Lifting my head
It's way too heavy
Laid in your bed
It felt so heavy
I want to sleep
But I'm too heavy

 

 

Bulldozer

 

How are you really
My beautiful wrecking ball
Is this all that is left of us

You’re my sweet hand grenade
Set to go off
I put you there in the deep of my heart

Why should I love You
Why should I love You
Why should I love You
The way that I do

I’m not so happy now
With All this debris
You stood and watched
As it came down on me

So why did we build this love
Or was it a dream?
You were the end to most everything

Why should I love you
Why should I love you
Why should I love you
The way that I do

But it’s alright
It’s alright
It’s alright…
With me…

 

Camouflage

 

The devil wore a veil to cover up his face
He danced inside your kiss
It was his hiding place
I can visualize the windmills stirring up the dust
Walking in my sleep
The truth escapes from us
I want to know who you really are
You breathed life into this secret world
A private moment incognito
You signed Anonymous in invisible ink
Love is divine but not immortal
I want to know who you really are

If Not

 

if not now, when
if not now, when

if not for me, why
if not for me, why
if not then, why

 

 

 

I Shudder for the Clouds Have Tempted Madness

 

I have kissed the mouth of silence
In the midst of my desire
And your love is veiled in shadow
Stretched across a trembling sky

I shudder for the clouds have tempted madness
Only darkness, without you
Without you, without you…

In this storm , too obscure to trace.
Growing dimmer is your face
I am calling out for blue sky
But we pale ,eclipse and fade

I shudder for the clouds have tempted madness
Now there’s sadness, without you
Without you, without you.

 

 

 

I Am Lovely

 

Certain, So certain, certain
It’s a wonderful likeness
Crazy, So crazy, so crazy
It’s an exquisite kiss.

And I’m afraid that this is real
I’m afraid that this is real
There is no one else like me.

Love me. Just love me, love me
I promise god won’t be watching
Wicked, So wicked, too wicked
This beauty, it’s deadly

And I can’t tear myself away
I can’t tear myself away
I can’t tear myself away.

 

 

Hunting Down the Ceremony

 

I wonder where you go to bleed
When you're hiding your pain from me

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I'll just let you go
I'll let you go

I know you've been held by fear
Well you've been held by me too

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I'll just let you go
I'll let you go

Hunting down the ceremony
Looking for those things you said
God get me back to safety
From the storm that's in my head

Oh maybe I'll just let you go
Oh maybe I should let you go
I'll let you go
I'll let you go

 

 

 

How the Devil Falls in Love

 

This is how the devil falls
This is how he falls in love
The devil falls in love you see
Oh Victorine, oh Victorine,
You buried me, alive

I always want what I can’t have
What I can’t have is killing me
It’s killing me why can’t you see
Oh Victorine, my Victorine
You’ve buried me alive

The plenty room has opened wide
It’s opened wide, so step inside
You step inside the devil’s pride
Oh Victorine, Sweet Victorine
You’ve buried me, alive

Well I can’t breathe without you here
It’s no good without you here
I don’t know why you’re not here…

 

 

 

Amnesty

 

I wanted Sanity
I wanted Solitude
I wanted Sympathy
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
Nothing more nothing less nothing less.

I needed Honesty
I need Integrity
I need your Amnesty
I needed peace in my heart, in my heart
I needed peace in my heart in my heart
In need peace in my heart in my heart
Nothing less Nothing less than all of this.

I dreamt of Clarity
A dream that Dug in deep
I dreamt of my release
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
I wanted something better than this
Nothing less Nothing less than all of it!

 

Poison in the Well

 

It’s an inner situation
It’s a private kind of hell
And no matter how I love you
You keep poisoning the well

You keep setting things on fire
Just to try and make you feel
You keep setting things on fire
It’s the only way you feel

It’s not like steam that turns to vapor
It always fails to become a smile
You know it may not be that tragic
You ought to have kept your soul alive

I would say that you’re a liar
When I watch you disappear
Like you’re falling down the rabbit hole
And you’ve left me standing here

And you’ve thrown yourself in exile
And you swear your heart won’t mend
You’re the only living victim
And it’s heaven all over again

You keep drowning in this maelstrom
You keep opening your mouth
You keep swallowing poison
Til there’s nothing coming out!

It’s an inner situation…

 

Queer

 

i know you’re there i know you’re in there

i thought i heard you breath out loud

it kiss me up just like quicksilver

the beads are falling from my mouth


i’ve been here i’ve been waiting for something

wouldn’t you know that life’s a queer

loving me on both sides of the daybreak

and spill me out as night draws near


i know you’ve thoughts i own your secrets

i’ve painted faces on your tears

and little children play inside you

tossing crumbs to feed your fears..


i’ve been here i’ve been waiting forever

i’ve always known that i’m so queer

loving you on both sides of the heartache

i’d swallow anything my dear..

i’m so queer...so queer..

Vacant Little Stare

 

Faintly, I see ,a glimpse of far away
The space behind her eyes
What lies below that kiss
What exists, is it madness?

She’s vacant, she’s vacant she’s missing
She’s not there
She’s vacant, she’s vacant, she’s vanishing
Right before my eyes…

Sometimes I feel a shiver
Do I risk to deliver her
From her expressionless temple

She’s vacant, she’s vacant she’s empty
She’s not there
She’s vacant, she’s vacant, she’s fading away
Right before my eyes…

Sometimes I feel a shiver...

 

Venus in Chains

 

oh it won’t be long now it won’t be long now
ooh i hear her falling from the sky
these little conversations are gonna kill me til i die

and venus ran all the way home
venus is no beauty if you’ve got her in chains

all she has to do is breath now
all she has to do is be her
she could never really hold you she has no arms
just remember venus turned into the chicken lady
when she tried to poison hans

and venus is far far away
and she is no good to you if you’ve got her in chains

 

Fable Honey

 

Ooh I knew you, before
I loved you
Oh I saw your face
Way before all of this.

One moment in time
One moment in time

Ooh, I saw right through, the fevered light.
How sweet of you
To get it right
Oh, I tasted you, A vital kiss
How true love fell upon my lips

One moment in time
One moment in time

You were pouring honey in my glass
You were pouring honey in my glass

You were pouring honey in my glass
I drank it up so it would last
And so I drowned my heart in amber
Lying still in there forever
Stuck inside, so we’ll remember
How it felt going down together
Suspended in our final moment.

 

 

Of Love and Ether

 

We’ll name it silver
Paint it gold
Within our hearts
Till we grow old
And reach for things for ponders sake
And watch how delicate it breaks
A quiet leap across my knee
A metaphor for you and me
To invent dreams so easily
It’s the same for love and ether

It burns it shines, a valentine
It glows no inhibition
A pleasant kind of oxygen
A clear and distant sky
But all this air behind the clouds
That links us like the atom
Goes up in smoke
The flames we stoke
It’s the same for love and ether

It’s shape it’s form
Is finely worn
To touch between sensations
It constitutes the light that roams
An anesthetic pleasure
And dare a bit of it gets in
It’ll occupy for certain
So hold your breath
It’s flammable
The same for love and ether…

 

Cellophane

 

I thought I saw your face today
A prelude to a trace of you
Like little paper lanterns in a row
You barely see the light poke through

Hinting like some glass that hints
At pieces of the little things
A camouflage of innocence
Sheltering white elephants that were
Driven out to sea. Driven out to sea

It’s just like us to hide away
Underneath~ CELLOPHANE
It’s just like us to hide away
Underneath~ our CELLOPHANE

Sometimes I see you when I’m sleeping
In the house of statues that we built
I hold a question in my one hand
And wave goodbye with the other

We are all so perfect in our silent ambiguity
Reflected back just like the sky
I see you looking back at me and
Crying, crying…

We always have to hide ourselves
Underneath~ CELLOPHANE
We always have to hide ourselves
Underneath~ our CELLOPHANE

We’re really naked after all.

 

7 Little Secrets

Amnesty

Broken

Bulldozer

Camouflage

Cellophane

Day in the Life

Emily Laughed

Fable Honey

Fall into You

Firefly

Girl in the Attic

Give it Back

God Grant She Lye Still

Habits of Shadows

Heavy

Hold My Breath

How the Devil Falls in Love

Hunting Down the Ceremony

I Am Lovely

I Shudder for the Clouds

If Not

Island

Love is Love

Little Birds

Mother May I

My Freedom

Objects in the Mirror

Of Love and Ether

Once

Poison in the Well

Prayer to You

Queer

Resurrection

Scribble the Sky

The Simple Truth

Somewhere U Were

Testify

This

Time

Tinderbox

Vacant Little Stare

Venus in Chains

Wash Away

 

 

Mother May I

 

mother may i have this dance
let me lead for once
the sandman's here for his recompense
he's been waiting to take me to bed
the sheep's in the meadow
the devil in my head.
mother may i have this kiss
it's better than sleeping pills
i've hidden the razorblades
give us our boys like our daily bread
and i let them touch me
so you could get fed.
mother may i burn these ribbons
soft yellow me and your hammer gray dissonance
you can go hunting for snakes on your own
cry for the husbands
who found their way home.
mother may i have this toy
just be a child this time
let the boys just go blind
mars needs woman
and you need olivier
the lambs in his bed now
the prince ran away...

My Freedom

 

Everybody wants a piece of me
Tie me to a mistake and burn me
Nothing I ever do is good enough for you
I could swear the day that I was born
My God gave me permission
To go outside and play with my own life
Cause I'm free, yes I'm free.
I won't sacrifice my lamb
It doesn't mean that I'm not pious
I'm born again but I'm praying' to myself this time.
I want to slide on you
Forget the robe, I'll be gone by morning
Just because you moaned
Don't make you mine
Cause I'm free, yes I'm free.
Everybody wants to bang my head into the wall
Till I can't read the writing
Every time I fall from grace
Without my safety net.
Cause I'm free, yes I'm free.

Objects in the Mirror Are Closer than they Appear

 

It may be something maybe nothing oh maybe it's just me
Maybe objects in the mirror are closer than they seem
I've been here, on both sides of myself
I can't leave until I reach across the bridge and pull us both together
I can see myself I'm smiling now, no wait, that's Mona
I can't tune myself in, the knob broke off my remote control
I've been sneaking up behind myself
Haunting my life like a good little ghost
I've been faithful to the myth
Belonging to the words, when I never moved my lips
I've seen limbo staring back at me from underneath my microscope
Now we're friends and he keeps sending me these postcards
Like footnotes from the void, the looking glass destroyed.
It may be something oh maybe nothing oh maybe It's just me
But maybe objects in the mirror are closer than they seem.
It may be something oh maybe nothing,
maybe It's just me...

 

The Simple Truth

 

you must have known that I was looking
it's hard to hide these guns away
did we hold rites to raise the living
or did we give our rights away
we gave ourselves to intuition
presumed the miracle was ours alone
but when it comes to eating pudding
I think the proof has all but gone .
oh there's pieces of you in pieces of me
but no ones listening
there's pieces of me in pieces of you
and I don't feel like crying anymore.
can you and I predict the future
reactivate the simple truth
interrogate my own suspicions
am i immune to "what's the use"?
oh there's pieces if you in pieces of me
but we're not here now
oh there's pieces of me in pieces of you
but what does that mean, anyway?
we all dive into lake obsession
but no one really wants to drown
is it our prides that we're protecting?
is that why you don't come around.
oh there's pieces of you in pieces of me
but we're not here now
there's pieces of me in pieces of you
but what does that mean?

Prayer to You

 

god are you there? have you come looking for me?
was that your flashlight signaling through the trees?
on this hill i've prayed to you oh god don't forsake me
here between heaven and hell in the end who will take me home?
i had a dream, that nothing mattered..and that my ticket to heaven
wasn't torn no wasn't tattered.
on the beds i've laid upon oh god don't desert me
lying in the evidence of love i'm so dirty...
who will save this heart now ..who will save this soul
who will save this life now who will save this.....
i've heard i'm damned, have they come looking for me?
i want to dance do you think they'll let me?
on this road i've kicked up stones oh god will you catch them?
throw them back if they're too small and i'll walk a straight line to you...
i had a dream that nothing mattered..am i still beautiful god?
have your eyes seen the damage?
who will save this heart now who will save this soul
who will save this life now ..who will save this ..who will save this?

Scribble the Sky

 

oh this girl has seen more than she wanted to
she never wore her camouflage
she dressed her thoughts in blue
but gravity can't hold her down now oh no
she'll bring her boots and her dreams and
leave the trenches far behind her
an echo of her pain..an orphan of the world
a hero to herself..she's forgiven this girl her trespasses..
and i'll put up a sign in the window that says
"this girl is closed due to a death in her heart"
i'll scribble the sky with crayon
until my words graffiti up the world
"farewell, goodbye "..this girl
oh this girl has felt the heat from the battlefield of love
they burned down all her wishes while
her habits were standing guard.
and the grenades have landed in the fields of bliss
and the sins of loving too much
spilled like gasoline all over her lips
setting fire to her kisses
and her loves were all doomed
well history will have to write it down...but for now..
i'll send a message in a bottle and i'll cast it out to sea
by the time they read my mind
this girl will finally be free
i built a monument to heaven and the angels perch like pigeons
and god is just biding his time
and she's not coming back oh no
say goodbye to this girl..

Somewhere U Were

 

somewhere there's photographs lying around
some things we captured.
you were a child playing shadows on the walls of my heart
sometimes there's rapture..
and somewhere you were , in my life and in my heart and it was
what we both had wanted.
and it was love that you were looking for..
somewhere you were and nothing mattered but the things
we both had shared and the dreams we had chased
somewhere you were in a better place
in my life and in my heart, and nothing mattered but us
somewhere with me...
sometimes you held me so close i thought i'd pass right through
the other side..sometimes it mad you cry...
somehow your words turned into rocks you would throw at me
sometimes i closed my eyes..
:chorus:
sometimes we thumbed a ride on a cloud
that carried us to heaven's gate sometimes we were too late
just when we thought we had figured the whole thing out
sometimes we made mistakes...
:chorus:

This

 

you ask me I tell you I don't know what I'm feeling
you ask me anyway and I answere honestly
I don't know what to say.
give me a little moment and maybe one more day
I'm sure I'll come up with something clever
it's just a game I play when no one's watching
I try to hide my face under a stocking
and nothing you do can change the way oh no I feel
nothing you do can change the way I feel
when I'm feeling this...mmm..this.
you tell me to shut my thoughts off and open up my mouth
what's the first thing that comes to mind
once a feeling gets out
it's not that I don't trust you I'm gaining on myself
oh I know I should believe you
I hear you listening
it's not the targets fault that I keep missing
and nothing you do can change the way i feel
nothing you do can change the way I feel
when I'm feeling this....

Time

 

deep in your heart there's a place where we can start
i'll be there waiting for you...
and if i'm right it's just a matter of time...
i'll trust whatever you do...
oh time is like a child...
growing older and as graceful as the wind
oh time has given birth to us,and what we'd lose we'd say goodbye to and we'd begin...
i saw you last night, you'd gone and borrowed a smile..
do you remember my face?...
your pride wore a mask but your heart bared both its eyes...
so i looked deep into that place...
oh time is like a child,
dancing lightly without shoes on in the sand
oh, time leaves an impression, but it melts away like tear
drops in both hands...
once you had known something that i can't forget..
we had uncovered the veil...
now it lays exposed while the chasm still grows,
but i'll dive til my memories can't sail...
oh time is like a child,
picking pockets for a little bit of change..
oh time has stolen moments and what we've lost we've said goodbye to cause things change...
oh...time has given birth to us...

Tinderbox

 

I'm living in a tinderbox waiting to blow
I'm living in a tinderbox waiting to go
and oh what did I know of this life up in flames
of this life without truth
and there's no sign of rain
living in a tinderbox bound to catch fire
what was i thinking was it just desire
there's no safety in wanting
the whole thing ignites
oh as quickly as you can say I'm still alive
I'm in here, I'm in here!
living in a tinderbox she's starting to go
living in a tinderbox she's starting to go
and I hope you don't light that match and
watch us all blow
and I hope you don't light that match
where would i go
living in a tinderbox
living in a tinderbox
living in a tinderbox

Wash Away

 

i am the only one who waits by themselves
saw my face in a doorknob once as you left here
i hear the water run--far away
but close enough to drown yourself in
i've died a million times... in your deepness.
oh god please wash away the madness
oh god please take away the sadness
i have no past i have no heart
i have no blanket in the dark
there are no curtains here, god i hate this place
please send a messenger to tell me
if it's gonna rain today
i'll wear my skin outside
to feel your answer
oh god please wash away the madness
oh god please take away the sadness.

7 Little Secrets

 

Good afternoon Master John, I hear you'll make my demons gone
It's not my fault that I loved a man
Left here to rot and inherit the dammed

Oh tell me tell me am I still pretty
Like the sun rolling down through a jewel
Is it me who's really dirty
or is it you who's just being cruel.

Master John, am I dancing tonight?
I don't have a clue will you be my left or my right?

What are we what are we waiting for
It's only a knife and a five dollar whore
We'll say she's your aunt and she'll pray for me friend
Tear out my heart and put it back again.

White doesn't fool me your screams are in color
You're just a hungry man out for his dollar

It didn't take more than the breath that you breathed
To climb in my window and terrify me
Is it your science to mine my regrets
Dream on Jesus someone else knows my secrets

Good afternoon Master John I hear you'll make my demons gone.

 

Firefly

 

You were once a great big star
Hanging in one short night
Caught me like a firefly
And snatched me up in mid flight

Put me in a bottle, now I’m banging against the edges
Be a blessing if I’d just die out
Instead of all defenseless.

Now I’m hardly breathing
My hearts barely beating
Trapped inside and going dark
Trapped inside and going dark
Like a firefly

I have often wondered why
Nothing ever changes
Growing subtle at a distance
I can see your beautiful face

I swirl and sweep to touch the ground
But suddenly I’m captured
Thrown into a darkness
Cause you took my light away
Now I’m hardly breathing
My heart’s barely beating
Trapped inside and going dark
Trapped inside and going dark

Like a firefly

Habits of Shadows

 

I waited up all night
You’re just a shadow
A secret kiss goodnight
You’re dressed in shadow

I hid inside the dark
Touching your shadow
The one who eats my spark
You walk In shadow

I sat in quiet light
To watch the shadows
Surrendered all my nights
To love a shadow

You’re just my shadow

God Grant She Lye Still

 

Dark light dancing like a mute girl
Who tries to scream and scratch her way out

I had watched you
I had watched you disappear underneath
My hands on your face

God grant that she lye still…

I had a spell of
I had a spell of delirium
These symptoms of a long lost dream

I give myself
I give myself away oh away to a ghost

I thought I had ended your face
I had thought that I ended your face
I thought I had kissed a trace of a goodbye off your lips

God Grant that She lye Still

There goes one last nail
There goes the final nail in the dream
Before the dawn, before you're gone

I’ll show you
I’ll show you the daybreak on a straw bed sleep

God grant that she lye still...